Could ya just...!?

I ask my body on a regular basis things like "could ya just let me get through this lunch without excruciating pain?", "Could ya just not give me grief over standing to talk to someone for 15 mins so I don't have to draw attention to myself by getting a chair and sitting when everyone else is standing?", "Could ya just pull through this one thing and I promise I'll let you rest after?". Today's "could ya just....?!" Is a little more angry and defeated than normal.
"Could ya just be strong for me so I'm not a burden to my family at this FUNERAL, so we can all focus on mourning and celebrating and comforting each other and not on ME and MY needs!?" Could ya!?
There is nothing worse than being a burden to others, in my opinion. To have your body not allow you to do what needs to be done. The worst type of burden is when you are somewhere to do something for someone else or be there and support someone else and have your body fail completely. The best case scenario in this situation is that you cannot do what you came to do and want to do for that person. The worst case scenario is that that person or those around you need to then help you and focus on you when it should be all about them. This is the worst of the worst.

Today we are in LA for the funeral of my dear young cousin. The funeral is tomorrow. Today I went to lunch with a friend and seem to have brought my pain level to the point of no return in doing so.  I cannot stand for more than mere seconds before literally collapsing in pain. Right now it's about pain management any way possible so I can make it to the first event tonight which is a dinner with 20 people.
So my "could ya just" is a prayer today that tomorrow will be ok. Just tomorrow body. You can fall apart again on Sunday if you just pull through tonight and tomorrow. So could ya just do that for me? Pretty please?