Ok yeah, there's nothing comforting about this pain.
Pardon my French but holy shit it hurts. It all hurts. You know when you can't lie still because it hurts but moving hurts too? And when you've taken meds but they aren't working and now you're just out of options? When it hurts to hold your phone and 3 ice packs cover your body.
It's so bad I can't even cry. Or breathe. And I feel like I'm going to puke.
It was all for a good reason and worth the day at the pool swimming with my kids. It felt good to help set up and be involved in our neighborhood pool party and sit out in the sun for hours with nothing to do but laugh and chat with great friends. It was worth it.
I tried to fight through today and go back to the pool. I made it a little over 2 hrs before I just had to pull the rip cord and come home. It was once again worth it to lie in the sun listening to my book watching my kids and husband play.
But sometimes I wish my days didn't always come down to "was it worth this misery?"
Tomorrow I have an MRI that will be 1 hr and 20 minutes in the tube. Right now I cannot even remotely imagine how I will lie still on that hard metal table that long with this level of pain, so here's hoping it subsides!
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